if you'd like to read about my personal experience with Brave Girl's Club and Soul Restoration I, you can continue reading here...
it's certainly hard to find a place to start when you want to tell a story about something that has completely and irrecovably changed your life.
to all of you who have read my stories and followed my blog for some time now, you know there have been some big changes happening with me. i guess, i've decided that the important thing to share, is not the gritty, yucky story about what needed to change in my life. really, we all have a story like that, don't we? abuse, addiction, depression, loss, dissappointment...whatever our own personal story is, we all have one that has affected us deeply. FOR SO MANY YEARS, i focused on the unfixable details of my painful story. the why, the unfairness, the anger, the sadness. no matter how hard i tried to "fix things" they always broke again. truly, i felt lost. stuck. alone.
i already knew deep down, the changes i needed to make. i knew that something had to change. soul restoration did not "fix my life" for me. it did not give me the answers i so desperately was searching for. it did not point fingers at anyone, nor assign blame.
what soul restoration did do for me, is instruct me and arm me with an entire set of tools that will be with me the rest of my life. tools i will in turn share with and teach my children.
i am who i am.
the good alongside the not -so good.
the right turns, the wrong.
one, whole, beautiful, hopeful soul.
i am exactly where i am supposed to be in life,
and tomorrow will be ok.
though my three children and i
are going through an incredibly painful change right now...
and many things in my life are unravelling...
i am in many ways,
happier and more confident about my direction
that i have ever, ever been.
in the words of Melody Ross, "when someone targets our weaknessess and exploits them, that is abuse."
i am worth so much more
than living under the umbrella
of any type of abuse.
and it feels really, really good
to not only say that
but to believe it.
this is probably the most personal post i have ever shared on my blog.
but if it touches one soul out there
and encourages you forward...
it will be so worth it.
thanks for reading friends.
if you'd like to see some pretty pics from my work in soul restoration you can click here: